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Date: May 25th, 2020.

Time of Writing: 1:15 AM.

Weather: I can't tell, warm enough outside for my Dad to grill alone in the backyard.

Mental and Physical Health State: I'm not really sure. I need to get more exercise but lack the willpower to go through the process of putting on a mask and walking around aimlessly again, in this kind of heat.

Day Overview: Woke up, played some video games, ate breakfast, waffles, two of them, three actually, nevermind, chocolate eggo in the toaster, tasted nice. Decided I needed to go for a walk and then didn't. Ate some instant tofu and broccoli dish for lunch that was pretty good. Played more games, thought a lot about getting more games even though I haven't tried all of the games I've downloaded. Hosted the first half of the weekly listenalong before it got too late for me to focus and I dipped out.

On My Mind: Not being around people other than my family has really sapped a lot of motivation from me. It's like, without regular social contact, I sorta just forget the wider world exists and is expecting anything from me. I feel content to just stay in here and waste away, literally physically wasting away in this house, I can feel it every day, the passage of time. The lack of activity, both mental and physical. In one sense, I'm handling this well in that I'm content. In another, I'm handling this terribly, because I haven't really acclimated. My content is built on a false promise to myself that it'll be over sooner rather than later, and things can go back to normal, when in reality there's no reason to believe these things, rationally. No reason at all.

Works Consumed:

• Streaming, CD, Record by Gesu no Kiwami Otome: Really cleanly produced Japanese math pop, every song prime for the opening animation of a trendy new romance anime, quirky enough to stand out on a minor international level but distinctly pop influenced in a way that reminds me of the same cultural niche that modern day Fall Out Boy and Panic! At The Disco fill. There are obvious moments of trend chasing on this album that stick out like an incredibly sore thumb. I dunno, this didn't click with me, even if it was good background music. 6/10.
• Dream Hunting in the Valley of the In-Between by Man Man: This one was fun in a weird carnival sense and not in the sense that I was personally engaged. They try really hard to be surprising all the time and it just gets sort of grating after a while. And the whole teasing other songs thing, though cute, is kinda bad. Some of this is fun and groovy but overall I'm left feeling unsatisfied. 6/10 I guess but that's not super reflective.
• Dedicated Side B by Carly Rae Jepsen: It's not really too cohesive, but there's some charm to this one, especially towards the end when some of the pop bloat starts to wear off. I can acknowledge this as a vibe, just not mine. It feels saccharine at times, but this is fleeting. Better than the album these outtakes come from. 7/10.

Works In Progress:

• Dark Souls Remastered developed by From Software: The Tomb of the Giants.

Works Produced: A hundred words, two hundred tops, of stuff that is actually usable.

Other Thoughts: Thank you for reading my zero motivation blog. Late as usual. Tomorrow hopefully I'll get back on schedule with these, I've been dreading a schedule slip for a while and it's finally happening so it's time to apply countermeasures.