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Date: January 27th, 2020.

Time of Writing: 8:25 PM.

Weather: Clear and warmish.

Mood: Full, bloated-ish.

Day Overview: I want to be quick today. I don't want to stew in my feelings too much, or fuck around with the minutae of the day too much, because today was pretty simple with an exception. In Japanese class the professor was replaced for the day by one of the TA's, who nodded wordlessly at my Hiragana as I was practicing in approval, which was interesting, because I'm terrible, and her whole purpose was to give people advice, so I guess maybe I'm not terrible. The girl I sat next to in Religion History was nice, and I was doing well taking notes until Google Docs shat the bed. My honors Ideas class sucked and was a pain in the ass to participate in. The real interesting bit came during the Radio Station General Body meeting today, where I had to introduce my show.

I got up there with everyone else, and I went first, because I was standing all the way on the left and because I was the first show of the day. And I did. And it felt terrible because I am awful at speaking to people, in any sense.

Maybe my future is in something like radio. I don't have to look at the people I'm talking to, and I'm not the main focus. Yeah. I'm best as a faceless voice. Sorry, I'm just not feeling talkative today. It's meatless monday in my personal kitchen in my head which determines what I eat from other people's kitchens, and maybe I'm just sort of out of sorts.

On My Mind: Should I get a haircut? Please get in touch with me about this, I cannot make decisions.

Consumed:

• Black is Beautiful by Dean Blunt and Inga Copeland: A perfectly anxious album for how I feel right now. The best hypnagogic pop album I've heard. The sketches and short songs add a lot to that hazy feeling, but in the long run I wish the album was more coherent because the songs on here are something else. I'm definitely going to find a way to work this into a future radio program. A good formative effort. Could grow up a point or so but on the whole taking all the unfinished feeling songs (I know the point is that but that doesn't mean that I still don't really vibe with hearing things that could be better if there was more of it) on the whole I'd say this is an 8/10.
• The Demise of Nanami by nanoshrine: Vaporwave has finally caught up to nostalgia that actually means something to me personally. The Skype days. The just discovering anime and manga days. The gooey gradients of Windows 7 days. I refused to upgrade from Windows 7 to Windows 10 for about two years, only officially making the switch when I got my laptop last summer. While I wasn't old enough to be quite as online as the person this album is so obviously intended for, and I lack the K-Pop sensability, this music sounds so early 2010s that it physically hurts at times. It hurts so good though. I'm aware of just how much of this is samples without much being done to them, and I would have appreciated more experimentation with, idk, Windows 7 system sounds? But what's here is pretty great. The last track has a bit of a revelatory moment. Fuck it, it's a 9/10.

Produced: About to do some homework.

Other Thoughts: I'm sorry for the brevity of this post. I'm feeling out of it today, and the week is busy. Tomorrow I'll probably have a mental breakdown onto the page and that'll be fun, ahahaha, thank you for reading.